Its been a long time since I’ve done this ‘cause these weren’t really important for anyone anyway but better to be safe than sorry.
So its that ol’ time again where I suddenly drop off the face of the earth for months, possibly to even a year. Even to moving to a new account, in which of course I announced in the old accounts. Is it going to happen? I won’t let it happen again of course but that would mean its going to be common for me to just stop talking halfway through our casual conversation. Even fun ones aww
To everyone else who's never heard of this before, it happens once in a looooooong while and its completely normal. What happens is that during those periods is when I need isolation and y'know, do nothing. Its probably due to emotional stress. Like I said before, not going to poof ever. Especially with all the responsibilities I hold now.
The reason why I'm saying this now is that some of you guys talking to me know I literally just stop talking and never say brb at all. Coming back and saying 'sorry I afked' without a reason so it might have raised a question or two. Thats not something I normally do after all and I've been venting art more than usual lately.
This began pretty early, probably when just opened. I handled things pretty badly in there too but you know me, I'm p dumb in recognising the signs in myself. So from around that period until now it's been building up slowly; I really thought it'll never happen again, but this week I found out I've been a bit spiteful/hateful than usual.
Figured it out now and I just want to apologise to anyone and everyone who knew I was in the wrong but never told me or unsuccessfully showed me my bias vision or got the brunt of my bad mood. Thank you to those who fought to show me the problem and my parents for noticing I've been awfully unresponsive, I thank myself for noticing my weight has dropped to friggin 37.7kg wowww
All I ask is that if I suddenly just go poof in the convo, don't question about it. I'm fine when I return back, its a method I do to relax since meditation does jack shit to calm me AHA
Other than that, everyone have a good day!
"Oarfish in Japanese folklore has been known to be the messengers of the Sea God's Palace. Bringing forth news of fortune or disaster. They are often washed ashore dead after an earthquake. As messengers come and go, so do what they bring."